Social Media

Endless images of people I don’t know, opinions about everything, advice I didn’t request, lessons I never needed, news I don’t want to hear, politics I don’t care about, horrible tales of woe, and stupid ideas. Welcome to Facebook. I have been on it more lately than ever out of loneliness, boredom, curiosity – and […]


I want to be where people are happy and glad to see me. Not just people who want something from me, but who love me and have missed me. Some of my children have moved away. I never wanted to be here in the first place and now I am biding my time as the […]

My oldest girl

The day will come when I am gone from this Earth and that will suck. But what a terrible life I would have lived if you had never been born. I was here without you for 32 years. If I can do it, so can you. I knew you before your birth by faith. You […]

Missing you

You show up in my dreams sometimes. My desire and belief that you will be in my life again prevents me from attempting a relationship with anyone because the man who would understand what we have does not exist. The friendship I have with you changed me at the deepest center of who I am […]

I’m a Cogswell!

Family history has always intrigued me. Even as a teen, I recall questioning my mother’s mother about our family tree. She told me two things I never forgot: we were related to wealthy people from England and there was a family inheritance that had never been claimed; and the second…that our beautiful blue eyes came […]