My youngest girl

Watching you grow and knowing you has been the joy of my life for 15 years. I was 42 when you were born. That gives you a totally different Mom experience than your four older siblings. You have been raised by the divorced, strong woman who kicks ass on some days and struggles to smile […]

Social Media

Endless images of people I don’t know, opinions about everything, advice I didn’t request, lessons I never needed, news I don’t want to hear, politics I don’t care about, horrible tales of woe, and stupid ideas. Welcome to Facebook. I have been on it more lately than ever out of loneliness, boredom, curiosity – and […]

Anywhere

I want to be where people are happy and glad to see me. Not just people who want something from me, but who love me and have missed me. Some of my children have moved away. I never wanted to be here in the first place and now I am biding my time as the […]

My oldest girl

The day will come when I am gone from this Earth and that will suck. But what a terrible life I would have lived if you had never been born. I was here without you for 32 years. If I can do it, so can you. I knew you before your birth by faith. You […]

Missing you

You show up in my dreams sometimes. My desire and belief that you will be in my life again prevents me from attempting a relationship with anyone because the man who would understand what we have does not exist. The friendship I have with you changed me at the deepest center of who I am […]